So it's been a little while..

I haven't posted anything in here in a little while..you honestly don't want an update on my life.


My mom is giving me a nicotine test sometime soon...I'm not sure when. And if it comes out positive the beach trip me and my friends have planned will be non-exsistant. What I don't understand is..she smokes..over half the population smokes and I have my own reasons for it..I don't see why there should be any problem with it. It's my body and if I want to slowely kill myself..hey! that's up to me! But whatever...life isn't fair..I guess we've all realized that at some point and time in our lives. I'm guessin that's just another way she can have complete contol over me for the next year an a half because she knows after that she has to let go.


So me and mitchell have pretty much figured out that we like each other and I guess you could say that we date now. He asked me out at Roger's pond Wednesday. It feels like I'm making more enemies these days than I am friends. Yep, you guessed it! Everyone is mad because me and him date.

When is the world going to learn that they CANNOT control me?
probably never...



Oh yeah, quick question..feel free to answer to the best of your ability.
How long do you have to go without smoking before the nicotine leaves your blood stream?
And is there's really an at-home nicotine test or is my mom just trying to scare me into quitting?
someone help here..
I went over 48 hours without one and then smoked one like a dumbass.
It's been about 19 hours since my last one.. = /

There's gotta be more to life..

Hello everybody, this is summer...I've signed up with this site before and deleted my account but my sister wanted me to make another..so I did!


Basically, life right now is like a roller coaster..one minute everything is up hill and going great and not even a day later it going down hill again. That's how my life has always been I guess. Up and down..


Today wasn't that aweful, I spent the day to myself at home while my mom was at work...cleaned up a little bit and pretty much stayed on myspace all day. It kinda gets boring after a while...talking to the same people every day..same conversations..
"SUP?"
"what are you doing?"
"nm just sittin here"
blah blah blah...
That's why I cannot wait to have my phone turned back on...hopefully that will happen tomorrow..
I can't believe I'm sick of the internet....this is coming from someone who used to spend hours just talking on myspace and posting blogs all day. I'm sick of it...there is more to life that the world wide web..and I'm not spending my summer vacation like this all the time.

Things are going to get better for me. I'm going to MAKE them get better.